I really want to be done with you. My feelings for you will never change, never diminish, never be absent. Your presence in my life will constantly be felt...you're part of me...you're in me. At the same time, I don't want anything to do with you.
The beginning decades of my life were so complicated, messy, full of struggle, along with an immense amount of joy, success, fun and learning. I want the ending decades of my life to easy, peaceful, smooth and without the ups and downs but with the joy, fun and continued learning. You're complicated, messy, a roller coaster of ups and downs, a culture I don't understand and don't want to be part of, you're dishonest when it suits you, you are in an entirely different place than me.
Age is a factor as well as experience. You've missed out on a ton of experiences that you still want to have. I am not in the same place. We are not the right choice for one another. No one is wrong, no one is right...we just have to recognize that we, jointly and separately, are not enough.
I just want to be done. Not in a bad, negative, angry way. But in a resolved, we've done all we can here, way.