What Possesses My Mind When I'm Alone

1. Being Alone
2. The Dark
3. Failing - or maybe that's my comfort zone and what I fear is success.
4. That my mom was right.
5. That I'll never get it right.
6. Never being able to make the changes I want to make.
7. That I won't/don't have the courage to keep going.
8. I'm scared to death of the light that love shines on my life.
9. Or maybe I'm afraid that I don't have a clue what love is.
10. That I seperated from the one person who actually knows me.
11. That I'd rather die than keep living this life.
12. I want a do over.
13. Buying a greyhound ticket to nowhere and becoming someone else.
14. I wonder what happened to my mom when she died.
15. Am I really doing my best or is there something more?
16. I'm not nearly as harsh as I let the world perceive me to be.
17. Is there some spiritual being out there that if I just connected with I wouldn't feel so lost?
18. Mexcian food.
19. What would I be right now if I had never married Lyle? Or if I had stayed married to Lyle?
20. Why do I waste so fucking much time pondering, repeatedly, things I cannot change?